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orientation is over. 7 days of stress and insomnia and people yelling at each other.
it's another time when i feel darned proud about council. to j1s, orientation might not have been smashing, or might not have meant much to them, but to o1 com... it meant so much. it means so much. j1s only see 4 and a half days of full-council organised activity, but for us, it took 3 months of planning and meetings and proposals and endless changes and heart heart heart. it took up our time and energy and effort. we're not superhuman you know? last year during orientation it never occurred to me that councillors too had to bathe after wargames and telematches. it never occurred to me that it was such a difficult job to keep cheering and singing and teaching dance. it never occurred that we could lose our voices that easily. i never really thought of councillors as students. i never realised that they had holiday homework festering too, and that they were going to have to have tonnes of lessons to catch up on and that even before they started the new year, they knew they were going to lag behind everyone else in their level. to j1s it was 4 days of exhaustion. for us it was 3 months. you think we're not tired cheering and dancing and singing? you think we enjoy torturing you guys with starch and ketchup? do you know that there were times the games ics would just sit down and stare at each other and wished they could die because things just weren't coming together? do you think programmes was just the simple li'l thing in your programme booklet? do you know how many meetings me and shuqi had to have with the teachers and how much re-working the programme took? it's not as simple as putting one thing after another. there are allowances for setting up, for clearing up etc. you think after campfire everyone could just go back to party? we're the ones who stay back and clean up the mess you guys create by spilling paint everywhere. you think fireballs materialise by themselves? do you know xingyi was so stressed by it she was crying in council room when it ended? do you know the fireball fell on meina during hoisting? do you know the number of ropeburns campfire crew got from tying the spars together? the number of blisters and cuts from wiring and firewood? you think we don't want to gice you guys more waterbombs? the teachers refused to let us buy more, and i had to run out during wargames to buy some more and rush back without letting the teachers know. wenqi was so stressed out because there were people endlessly breathing down her neck and she had to go up in front of all of you everyday being enthusiastic? do you know you're not the only ones sick of dance sessions? all the councillors wanted to die during wild wild west, and yet we still have to keep on yelling and teaching you guys when some of you don't even care.
but i'm not as bitter as i sound, really. aside from screwing up 2 parts of council dance during campfiere, it went pretty well. i almost enjoyed orientation (even if my junior class is a bit of a letdown.) and i think i really got to know shuqi a lot better ^^ she's not as cold and tough as she looks. and i guess it's good we're both get-it-done-and-over-with people so we pretty much split the work quite evenly for programmes. only during orientation somehow i wasn't always around for stuff. like on tuesday i was helping sharon take care of her class so poor shuqi was swamped with distribution of valuables. and on thursday after wargames, i was hosing people, so poor shuqi had to do it herself again. >_< oh my. and yesterday, the girl was so accident prone she ended up cutting her fingers and getting turpentine in them and having it sting and yet still acting all tough and matter-of-fact.
and in the end during final debrief, wenqi just started crying, and then the o1 girls got teary and shuqi buried her face in her hands. the campfire was pretty smashing, and everyone's spirit was way up, only there was this sadness in the air, cos we had to return to real life soon... and this would mean council only had two more events left... and our term would be ending soon. and all the heart that we put in... the girls just started crying and there was an o1 group hug (for the girls only. the guys happily steered clear of it.) and shuqi and i hugged and shuqi just went, "thank you" and then later wenqi and i hugged too and she thanked us for the wet-dry proposals we went crazy doing. -sigh- even chiam chiam and mrs toh looked really proud, and chiam chiam mentioned this was why he had offered to get into the 'shithole' (apparently a staff-room term for being a council teacher.)
the 29th Orentation Committee:
teacher-advisors: Mrs Toh and Mr Chiam
Com chair: Wenqi
Secretary: Yang Wen
Publicity: Mel
Programmes: Shuqi and me
Games: Vic, Xinpei, Haojie, Kaiwen and Kelvin
Packaging: Shining and cexiang
Campfire: Aishu, Weiliang and Yisheng [and honorary member xingyi ^^]
o1 kebabah!
she took the flowers and left at 9:26 AM
Your Mood: You are probably feeling overwhelmed at the moment. It is as if you have too much on your plate and need time out. Perhaps you need a rest so that you can recharge your batteries; at the moment do not feel ready to take on more challenges. Focus and determined describes your present mood. You are out to achieve your goal and you concentrate on that. Unwavering you want to stick to the target of your ambitions, not completely to the exclusion of everything else, but almost! . . .
Your Present Situation: You really need to take time out at the moment, your life is proving tiring and you seem to need to be on the lookout at all times. There is a real danger of wasting your energy, seek out someone who can help you to calm down and relax. You could do worse than take a romantic weekend break to help you revitalize yourself.Your current situation is causing you a great deal of angst. Somehow you have become over-involved in something that is leading to feelings of stress and doubt. You are at risk of feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. . . .
Your Conflicts: You have no conflicts at the present time . . .
not quite up to colorgenics' usual standard, i'm afraid. only 2 out of 3 correct.
she took the flowers and left at 3:32 PM
one year ago on this day, my class woke up early to get to the airport by 7am, so we could send lichun off to england (where she'd be going to study) and later even after we sent her off, we had breakfast together and walked around together. the sun hadn't risen fully yet, and we could still tell ourselves the year hadn't begun. then we sat down in terminal one and talked. of our future. of jc courses and subject combis and even uni plans. we talked and talked, refusing to leave... but time Passed. and by noon the airport was filled with increasing activity and we knew our time was up. and we left. to our own lives. to our own hopes and dreams of jcs.
(but we never wanted to leave, you see. leaving would have meant that it would be the last time we would be 4H, and not 02S63 or something else. we didn't want the year to start. we weren't ready yet. just to cling on. just to stop the past from going too far out of reach.)
3 days ago, we had a gathering. many missing faces, many mellowed personalities. lives that could never quite be joined again the way it was a year ago. we still smile at each other. (we always did.)
today i think back to one year ago when i was stupidly squandering my free time. i think back of the year that passed so fast. i think of dashed dreams, broken connections, lost time, lost friends, lost hope and despair despair despair.
i don't want the new year to start. i'm not ready. there are so many messes to clear. there's all these work from council. there's my studies. i left it in a tangle and i haven't sorted it out yet. i can't start now. i don't understand anything in my tutorials. i haven't practiced my piano, i haven't prepared the programme booklet. there are people to call, presents to buy, work to clear.
just one week. one week more. i swear i'll be good. i really really need it.
please.
she took the flowers and left at 11:45 AM
dO nOT hUNT tHE bUNNIES
because i bizarrely really liked the picture of rukia that i drew, i made a [depressive] blog layout out of it. go me. and
look-- so many
shades of grey! and the font used on the separator is goodbye cruel world. isn't this just a basketful of sunshine.
depressive header title is the title of the instrumental theme that plays in the episode where rukia
leaves karakura for soul society.
kuchiki rukia is from the manga/anime series Bleach and belongs to Kubo Taito, yo. art belongs to meMeME.
cURRENTLY iNGESTING: Ulysses, James Joyce
sQUARE pEG
ai is a struggling and penniless university student alternating her time between humid ol singapore, and freezing |
sweltering* york, england. she has finally hit the big two-oh, and everyday she weeps and beats her breast, and sighs, and
heaves, and cries herself to sleep for the wild and feckless youth she never had. she now spends her time wondering about
authors and readers and texts, and how they all annihilate each other. she's had a pleasant life, the one we've all had,
filled to the brim with the love of absent things. (she also loves alfian sa'at's poetry, in case you hadn't noticed.) if you
think you can make her toes laugh, or if this blog has been your secret guilty pleasure, do feel free to find her at hotmail or yahoo
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accordance to season)
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